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Today I logged in YM! and found out you came back. Still no changes much! Your sense of humour showed the avatar Kitty in the handcuffs. Hmm Okie you came back and that's it!

Shopping for TET

Tomorrow will be New Year Eve...and the following day will be the first day of a new year. Well, my emotion is getting changed time to time. I don't feel as eager as before any more. Tet now is just like the time I can get a bit relax after many hard working days. No hanging out, no bf, no schools, ... Everything just goes round and round. Hope something new in the next year.

Dust on eyes

I remember you got tears on your eyes once we chatted together. Then I asked you if you were crying or getting dust on your eyes. You told me it is because of dust. I believed in your answer eventhough I know well there was no any dust in your eyes.
Today I am listening a song-a Viet one by chance that named “Dust on eyes”. The song is so so and her voice is so so, too. But don’t know why all the things we got together revived to me.
One morning like others, I dressed up and got my bike to work. Red lights!!! I stopped, had the left foot press on the break; looked down and I saw men whose socks are not white. I remember that you told me you prefer a pair of white, then I make a comparison if any difference between the men in black/grey/brown/dark blue socks and the men in white socks. It just takes 30 secs to stop for red lights while I got many questions in my mind. Okay, done! Time was up and I had to ride on. I didn’t have any answer for my questions but surely next time I will see men’s socks again and think of you.

Happy New Year!

1/1/2009

Happy Birthday!

A woman's heart

When I heard it , I felt like I were out of the game; like I dont feel any connection between he and I , my grandpa . It is very very long time , I havent seen him any more and now what I heared is "grandpa is dying" . It is normal ! Nothing special as for me . I guess if he were beside me and see me growing up day by day or at least stay here sometimes , I might feel something for him . I cant even say "poor for him now" . How bad ! So he is staying in the village hospital . Maybe sooner or later , Dad , uncles and aunts will come to see soon . I will not come . yeah I guess so . Long time ago I thought the next time I see him would be at the funeral . Yeah ! Now I say poor for him ! I wonder what made a man left his 7 children to live with a woman of 5 private kids . How cruel man ! Karma ! Now he got what he deserves huh ? I dont know . I dont have rights to judge him . An over 70 or 80 (sorry grandpa I dont know your age, I just know grandma's) is still wearing wedding ring to his step wife when he comes to our house and ask for money . Cant believe this ! Aw !

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Well , it has been a long time that I have not uploaded any things on this blog . Hmm , partly because I am so busy . Everything is just going around and around and I feel like I am blown to it . Well , it is just about 3 months since the day I left school and started a new chapter of my life . 4 months or more since the last day I chatted with him and we dont see each other any time later . So maybe it is the destiny of my life . Well , I dont often believe in it , but who knows ? My life seems to go around all those stuffs: tears , laughs , obstacles , failures , success ....I feel I grow up , lazier and uglier . Today , when I stood in front of the mirror , I realize how terrible I am . I see how old I am getting , complex seems darker and the look is not happy . . . Women can not hide their look !!! That is what someone said and it is correct . Although I have my face made up every day , I dont see that I am pretty every day . It is just like I am wearing a mask . How sad ! Maybe I am covered by a loneliness . I should have someone to date with or to hang out every Saturday night , carrying by bike after work shift or . . . Okay , stop it ! Oor I will burst into tears . It is enough for today .